Puking

Ever had that feeling of wanting something so badly that you feel like throwing up?

I had a job interview last week. It's probably the only job that I've ever applied for that I really want to get. Badly.

I've never really tried out for a job that I really liked, I was either forced to go or I went because I desperately needed the money. Or sometimes, I liked the position, but I didn't like the environment I was going to work in. As a result, i've turned down a lot of jobs simply because it didn't feel right.

But the moment I scouted this job, I knew that I wanted to work with these people, for this company.

It didn't matter that it was only a temp job and paid very little. That it was a long commute, even longer work hours, and a very hectic schedule. I wanted it.

So badly that now my brain is shutting down and all it can say is "shit."

Ah, shit.